I feel so gross and fat. I’ve been not really binge eating but eating really unhealthy food. My stomach is so plump and fat. I keep pinching my stomach and sides to remind me of my fatness. I just want to cry or die. This is not supposed to be happening. I need to be loosing weight, not gaining.
I just want to die. Why can’t I be skinny? Fuck my life.
me in a nutshell:
- my weight is unacceptable
- my body is repulsive
- the amount i eat is appalling
I’m moody as fuck so if you want a relationship/friendship with me understand that there will be days that I will not care for your presence even though you did nothing wrong followed by days where you’ll the only person that I want to talk to despite having nothing to say.
i really hate this semester more than life.
I’m going vegetarian for at least 40 days. hopefully I will last longer and hopefully I’ll loose 20 lbs by the end of my 40days. Praise the lord.